noypi

i was running through my e-mail and came across an interesting forward. it was from a japanese (?) who now lives in the US and runs his own radio program. as i scrolled down the page, i was enraged by what he wrote about Filipinos-- that we are not deserving to be called Asians compared to the Japanese and Chinese, that we lack discipline, and that we live in a filthy place!

i thought "ah ganon ha? ganyan na lang ba kababa ang tingin mo sa mga pinoy? wait till i send this to all Filipino friends i know!"

but while i was in the middle of reading the article, the Lord prompted me not to forward it to anyone nor let anybody hear or hear about it from me.

i argued, "but Lord?! Hindi ata pwedeng maliitin lang kami ng ganyan-ganyan!"

He gently replied, "if you spread this article, you'll be sowing seeds of dissension and planting anger, regionalism, and racialism. people will then start hating his fellow brethren, his fellow asian. hangga't merong pagkakabahabahagi at pagkakampi-kampi, hindi nyo matututunang mahalin ang bawa't isa tulad ng tinuro Ko. there can never be unity as long as there are Filipinos, Japanese, Chinese, Koreans, etc.

"Even if you're being mocked, hayaan nyo lang. darating din ang panahon na itataas Ko kayo at makikita ng buong mundo na Ako ang Diyos ng mga nilalait-lait nila. sila rin ang matatahimi86k at mapapahiya."

i rest my case and turned the PC off.

skipping meals

fasting has found a new meaning for me. i've always thought that whenever i fast, i miss on something. it's more of a loss rather than gain.

however, as i learn to walk more closely with the Lord, i now feel the need to fast. my spirit urges me to yield more to the source of my strength.

it's when i'm on my knees that i am most powerful. whenever i'm down, all the more do i need to fast.

kumukuti-kutitap

God revealed an insight about His shining light in us.

as much as i want to live in the light, i've been struggling to fight darkness in my life. it has been unpredictable. one moment i'm in the light and one moment i'm in the darkness.

then suddenly i remembered how annoyed i get with blinking lights-- specially when the light in my room starts to have a blown fuse or when the starter weakens.

i'm sure that's the same way God feels when i'm in a kumukutikutitap mode. He told us He'd rather have us lighted or none at all.

help me stay lighted until You come back, Lord.