3.15.2006

widow

March 9, 2006

my lolo (grandfather) passed away today. he reached a grand old age of 82.

i didn't cry when i saw his body lying limply at the ER table.
it was time.

i've witnessed how he survived numerous accidents and illnesses and how death attempted to take his life each time but has been spared anyway.

over lunch, my family casually discussed the funeral arrangements, internment, and all necessary preparations, when i blurted out, "so, how's life gonna be for lola (grandmother)?"

even i surprised myself over that statement.

then reality sank in. i began to wept. i felt sad not over lolo's death, but for lola. what will happen to her? how will she live a life by herself? they have always been a constant companion. who will she take care of now? would life still be worth living for?

as i ponder on these thoughts, i understood why Jesus had a soft spot for widows.


"Do not exploit widows or orphans. "
- Exodus 22:22

"He gives justice to orphans and widows. He shows love to the foreigners living among you and gives them food and clothing. "
- Deuteronomy 10:18

`Cursed is anyone who is unjust to foreigners, orphans, and widows.' And all the people will reply, `Amen.'
- Deuteronomy 27:19

Father to the fatherless, defender of widows-- this is God, whose dwelling is holy.
- Psalm 68:5

The LORD protects the foreigners among us. He cares for the orphans and widows, but he frustrates the plans of the wicked.
- Psalm 146:9

Learn to do good. Seek justice. Help the oppressed. Defend the orphan. Fight for the rights of widows.
- Isaiah 1:17

my two thousand six

God says, "you will have a glorious future."
God will open doors of blessing and opportunity.
No more discouragement.
"There will be clear sailing and calm seas.@
-Mark 4:39

wishlist

few days before my bday (for those who forgot, it was March 2), i received an email from hi5 asking me to fill out my wishlist.

Hi Shawi,

Happy Early Birthday from Hi5! Fill in or update your wishlist and tell your hi5 friends what you would like for your birthday.

Thank you and see you soon,
the hi5 team

some items on my wishlist can't be bought, but let me post it anyway:
  • tunic.
  • chronicles of narnia (not only "The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe", i want all of 'em).
  • to sing Orange and Lemons' "Pinoy Ako" at some piazza in Italy.
  • to take the siberian express and visit st. basil's cathedral.
  • a map of the world that i can sprawl on my wall.
  • to go sea kayaking.
  • i wish my friends would return all the books and cds i lent them. anyone, please? send them through waybill or courier. i'd appreciate 'em much!

filth

our righteousness is but filthy rags
our iniquities take us away from God's favor
Isaiah 64:6


contemplate

my sister switched to senti mode when she took a trip to banaue. these are some text messages she sent while "emoting":

to be the air that inhabits you for a moment only.
i would like to be that unnoticed and that necessary
-Margaret Atwood

you know you're in love when you can't fall asleep
because reality is finally better than your dreams.
- Dr. Seuss

sangdaang isla


with the boondockers
feb 25 - 26, 2006

while probably the entire philippines has gone awry at the failed attempts of coup d'etat and at the president's declaration of a State of Emergency, this day, i became an official boondocker.