yesterday, my uncle delivered a eulogy for his wife during the necrological service. it crushed my heart to see him utterly distraught while he spoke of living a miserable life without her. well, who wouldn't yearn for the person whom you shared almost your entire life with?
today, i am sitting at the wake of yet another man who left his wife due to a disease that inflicted him.
seven years ago, i lost my brother who died at a fresh age of sixteen. come to think of it, the pain i felt that time could NOT possibly surpass the pain of losing your better half. the other half that would make you whole. i haven't even been married yet. but just that thought grieves me.
a few years back, i was toying with the idea of finding another man should i become a widow at an early age. in my imagination though, it was as easy as getting a new wardrobe and as quick as changing your cellphone's skin. i missed the part where you actually get devastated.
this was a good wake up call. and a reality check.. to choose NOT a husband i can live with. but someone whom i cannot live without.
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