unWanted: social worker

i have reached my saturation point.

i no longer enjoy work. i find it monotonous and routinary.

i'm in that stage in life where i'm looking for my purpose... searching for my meaning. one friend calls it the quarter-life crisis.

however you want to call it, i realized that if social pressure, parents' expectations and financial capability were not factors, i'd rather be a ... social worker... roaming around the world offering my services. but you see, to be able to do that, i'd need money. lots of money. and for me to have money, i need to work. and how can i work if i'm not happy with what i'm doing?

*sigh* the cycle is so depressing.

if that's not enough to bring my hopes down, i've googled some volunteer sites (UN volunteers, volunteer abroad, etc) and discovered that "skilled" workers are highly preferred-- meaning you either have to be in the medical field. or a policy advisor. or a natural heritage protection specialist. or an environmental coastal zone specialist. you must have experience in project support. or you must have a good working knowledge in at least one of the languages (Arabic, French, Portuguese, Russian, Spanish). and the list goes on and on.

well, thank you. i am none of the above :c

yes, fate had me destined to be an average person.

i am just a simple girl who was wide awake when God showered the gift of wanderlust, who has an insatiable desire to capture the world through my digicam, and has a heart for indigents. period.

if it counts, i am low maintenance. i can easily blend in. i have a missionary's stomach (thanks to my beloved country's wide gastronomic array of street food)... i can sleep without a mosquito net... i can take a bath anywhere where there's water... i can walk for hours under the heat of the sun... i can carry loads of goods... i can survive days without computer and internet (if need be.. so help me God!)... i can pick up foreign language fast:

Japanese for "I don't speak Nihongo": Sumimasen nga, Nihongo wa wakarimasen;
German for "Good morning": Guten Morgan;
Hindi for "I'm full": Paet Barghiya;
Karen for "Jesus loves you": Kasa Yuwa Ena;
Greek for "God bless you": Theos Evloeate;
Taiwanese for "I don't understand": Wo pu chi tawa;
Italian for "Let this be our prayer": Nella mia preghiera;
Chinese/Mandarin for "Thank you": Shih Shieh;
Arabic for "Thank you": Shukran

...and adapt to a country's English accent or manner of speaking:
* Australian: G'day might! Care for some wo-tah? There's heaps. Heloi.
Translation: Good day mate. Care for some water? There's plenty. Hello.
* Indian: You dress smart. You look like a doll. Let me take some snaps.
Translation: You dress well. You are beautiful. Let me take some photos.
* Swedish: Folksvagen. Vat is ze mater viz you? Vatefer.
Translation: Volkswagen. What is the matter with you? Whatever.

...just so they pick me.

but no. sadly, my qualifications do not fit the bill. either you have the money or you have the skills.

had i known volunteering held such :high: standards and so much requirements, i would've joined "Pinoy Big Brother" or "Game Ka Na Ba?". maybe winning my first million would be easier. i'd be happy being just a philanthropist.